Mommy 🐧, I neither know humanity nor do I know divinity. It is the grace of Sri Ramakrishna and Maa Sharada that I am being able to write this. I am a nobody infront of them! 😇❤🌺 My pranaams to you, my darling Mommy 🐧 🙇♀️🙇♀️
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My mom will fix me into a PG day after tomorrow in Delhi. Its time now, to study well! I wanted to go to Delhi because I want some serious students to be around me with whom I can learn and compete. To be frank, I think, online studies isn't being much of a help as I am not being able to see where I stand among the sea of students and also, with online stuff, I feel like, so-and-so much is enough.. I was not getting that competition at home, that challenge and thrill of topic discussion alone at all. I know, 99% depends on self study, but I need that environment that pushes me to study as well. I haven't seen people studying for the exam either around me (at home) and slowly, that vigor was going away, that's why I have decided to move to Delhi, and I feel, at least 2% will be serious as I know almost 98% will be there for time pass. I hope to get a company of those hard-workimg, smart-working students, as it will give me a kick to start. Maa, I want to take your blessings before I start this journey Mommy! My pranaam! 🌺🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️
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Also, looking at the condition at home, I could not express my wish to my parents about going there next month. If Swami wants, I can go with the help of Gugo Dada. Maa, I will not lie, I badly want to go there the next month but in the bottom of my heart I know that Swami will do whatever is the best for me! I could not drop the thought of visiting that place but I have immense faith in Swami that whatever he subjects me to, will be the best thing ever for me and I wholeheartedly accept his decision! It all depends on Swami now. All of it! I want to see what Leela plays out now! 😁😁😁 My love and my love to Swami and you! 🌺🌺🙇♀️ Jaganmata Pahimam!
